coming back

well hello there blog! it's been awhile... didnt know i can access this again.

hopefully I can start writing again soon... well, this is a start.


Johann

Standing up again

Was a busy week for me... I just thought of blogging again now.

Had 4 days of rehearsing people from Goldquest corp. to do a rendition of "Footloose" for their christmas party. Hilarious bunch of people. They worked hard to learn all the steps, choreo, songs. I really pushed them to their limits and introduced them to musical theater.

They competed with groups who did Fame, HS musical, Grease and Moulin Rouge. Some groups were so ALL OUT in their sets! gosh, and all we had were table and chairs. My group really performed well when it was their time to perform, im so proud of them. When the results were in, i was nervous myself. Then we heard "For the grand prize, averaging a score of 95.6%, goes to..... FOOTLOOSE!", WAAHHHH i jumped for joy!

Id like to thank the Lord for this 2nd win for me, I taught another group last year who did "Hairspray", and we also won. Is this my calling? hahah... well i just give more of myself whenever i do stuff like this. And i know the people i teach really go the extra mile, not for the win, but for the experience.

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Mayen's bday countdown last night. YUMMY home-baked cinammon rolls. mmmmmm yum yum.
From their condo, the christmas wind was blowing oh so coldly. Sarap, i enjoyed the breeze, which actually made me a bit senti as well. Hayyy... no comment nalang.

Christmas is around the corner.... i still cant feel it thou. I duno how christmas would be for me this year, but im hoping for the best.

OH! dad got me RAM (memory) for my Macbook! i love ittt!!!

yun lang.... hehe..

let the rain pour down... i dont care...

"I like walking in the rain, because no one would notice that im crying"- charlie chaplin

Well, something like that, I dont remember the actual quote, but thats what i feel right now. As I hear the rain pour outside my window, at 1:50am, i wish i was there, drenched in the rain, so no one would know that im actually crying.

Im tired. Exhausted. Having the feeling that you're giving so much, always going the distance, but I dont get anything back that would sustain me or make me happy at least. Im tired of understanding. Am I expecting too much? Bakit ang mga ARTISTS masyadong emotional? Am I trying to hard? Is it still all worth it?

Sh*t, ang hirap mag blog na you have to generalize things to somehow keep things private, pero its the best thing i can do. I just need to rant about it at this moment.

Life is tough. I duno if im the only one making it harder though, with my eyes focused on the sky, or focused on my own contentment, and not looking at the good things I get in return, even if they're so little but are such jewels, worthy of keeping (did that make sense? oh well at least ako naintindihan ko).

Itutulog ko nalang ito. After every storm, God promises a rainbow. There will be brighter days Johann. Hug yourself, it's the least thing you can do.

Best Birthday to date!

Goshhhh.... all i can say is.... GOSHHHH......

3 days of celebrating my 26th birthday. Was a BLAST! I had the time of my life, with friends, family, people who love me. Feels good to know that you're cared for and people remember you on your special day.

Day1:
Nov 2, 2006- Watched "Open Season" in the IMAX theater in Mall of asia with Felix, Jepoy, Mayen, Steve, Tita Jinggay, Surot and Jay. HAHAH was hilarious! and it was so cool, coz the movie was in computer animation, then in 3D pa, so double the fun! and the script was so funny as well.
Countdown to my birthday in Gerry's Grill.... PIGed out! At 12AM, text messages bombared my phone with greetings from people who I didn't know they knew when my birthday was. hehe.. thanks to all of you...

Day2:
Nov 3, 2006 my Birthday! I met with some friends in ABS-CBN to bring them to The Nestle Creamery.... to have lunch, which lasted 4 hours! just sitting there, making kwento, eating ice cream, taking pictures. Thank's to Dan and company for the Linen fabric freshener... hahaha... and Jepoy, Felix, George and Jepoy for the F&H shirt! it fit very well!
A couple of my friends went to Leslie's condo, to just spend the rest of the afternoon there, also for me to dress up for the party in Music 21 in the evening with the JTD cast. I was welcomed with balloons, disco lights, a big screen and videoke tunes, while everyone was wearing Black and White as a theme for a costume. Sang the night away, got some gifts and lotsa cakes from Franco Laurel. Ended the night with a couple of drinks in Station2.

Day3:
Post birthday celebration! may pahabol pa! hahaha.... Picked up college friends, High School friends, Trumpets friends, and other friends to have dinner in Ybardo's. Great company, great music, FUN! Also went to MiNT in the FORT to have a couple of drinks and dance the night away!



Phew... this was the best birthday ever to date for me. I had sooooooo much fun! and i loved the company of people who celebrated with me during these days. I feel old, but young at heart! haha. All is good! I feel so blessed, so loved, and everything has been put back into place. I thank the Lord for all the blessings He's showering me with, I am grateful....

'til the next birthday! wahhhhooooo!!!

Difficult Times Dont Last Forever

Sometimes, the problems
you must face
are more than you wish
to cope with,
and tomorrow doesn't seem
to offer any solutions.

You may ask yourself "Why me?"
but the answer is sometimes unclear.
You may even tend to feel
that life hasn't been just or fair
to burden you with such obstacles.

The roads any of us choose
to follow are never free
of bumpes or curves,
but eventually the turns
lead to a smoother path ahead.

Believe in yourself and your dreams.
You will soon realize that
the future hold many promises
for you.
Remember... difficult times
dont last forever.

-Geri Danks

=(

I never thought I would write an entry here in my blog when i'm depressed, but I guess I am.

Have you ever started a day right, everything going on smoothly, happy....then in just a blink of an eye (well to me, a text message), your whole world crumbles and you feel bad? That's how I felt today.

It's unfair, that when you devote time, effort to something that's very important to you, and you don't even know if it's appreciated, or why you're not getting anything in return. Na ako yung nag e-effort palagi. And all you can do is to understand, be patient, compromise, learn to forgive, but it tears you apart. Now i'm here sitting in my computer at 2am, crying... lonely. Hoping tomorrow would be a better day.

Gosh I hate days like this.

HE knows better than I

Such an inspiring song that at this time in my life, brought me hope. The cast of JTD would usually sing this backstage, i didnt know i would be hooked to the song as well.

Life is tough, but i know HE knows better. God has everything planned already. Kahit nahihirapan, He knows what's best because he has your life planned from the very beginning.



You Know Better Than I


I thought I did what’s right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don’t know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what’s best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
I’ll take what answers you supply
You know better than I

Benjie

Me playing "BENJAMIN" the youngest brother of Joseph in "Joseph the Dreamer"



Hope all of you can catch a show, it runs until November!

Thanks to all who already watched as well!

"Praise HIS name"

SM Megamall
Sept to Nov 2006
3pm and 7pm shows during weekends

Hope to see all of you there!

My two new "BABIES"

Well, i think it's just fair to reward yourself once in awhile, and after a lot of hard work, i got two new babies! well actually, 3, excluding a sony miniDV camera i got months ago after playshop.




Meet "threegee" (wala na akong maisip na name)





and "Negra"







Been so blessed this year, with lots of support, shows to share my talent, abundance in love, everything's wonderful. Thanks Lord!