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I never thought I would write an entry here in my blog when i'm depressed, but I guess I am.

Have you ever started a day right, everything going on smoothly, happy....then in just a blink of an eye (well to me, a text message), your whole world crumbles and you feel bad? That's how I felt today.

It's unfair, that when you devote time, effort to something that's very important to you, and you don't even know if it's appreciated, or why you're not getting anything in return. Na ako yung nag e-effort palagi. And all you can do is to understand, be patient, compromise, learn to forgive, but it tears you apart. Now i'm here sitting in my computer at 2am, crying... lonely. Hoping tomorrow would be a better day.

Gosh I hate days like this.

HE knows better than I

Such an inspiring song that at this time in my life, brought me hope. The cast of JTD would usually sing this backstage, i didnt know i would be hooked to the song as well.

Life is tough, but i know HE knows better. God has everything planned already. Kahit nahihirapan, He knows what's best because he has your life planned from the very beginning.



You Know Better Than I


I thought I did what’s right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don’t know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what’s best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
I’ll take what answers you supply
You know better than I

Benjie

Me playing "BENJAMIN" the youngest brother of Joseph in "Joseph the Dreamer"



Hope all of you can catch a show, it runs until November!

Thanks to all who already watched as well!

"Praise HIS name"

SM Megamall
Sept to Nov 2006
3pm and 7pm shows during weekends

Hope to see all of you there!

My two new "BABIES"

Well, i think it's just fair to reward yourself once in awhile, and after a lot of hard work, i got two new babies! well actually, 3, excluding a sony miniDV camera i got months ago after playshop.




Meet "threegee" (wala na akong maisip na name)





and "Negra"







Been so blessed this year, with lots of support, shows to share my talent, abundance in love, everything's wonderful. Thanks Lord!

"A" for effort

This just makes my day everytime I watch it. Props to the girl, pinanindigan nya! love it!



keys me.... come on!!! keys me.....

my Bling-Bling featured in thebachelorgirl.com

Thanks to Lorna who featured my "business" in her site. (http://www.thebachelorgirl.com)

I have been changed for good...

A little tribute to my MT-G class. Love you all...






in case you can't view the file, here's a link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUBh4eVDOnI


Kudos! Bravo! I'm so proud of all of you!

Wickedly Wonderful Summer

Officially, my summer ends now. After all the rehearsals, headaches, laughter and hard work, it all boils to a WICKEDLY WONDERFUL show that culminated yesterday in AFP theater.

I'm so proud of my MT-Teens G. They delivered very well, and the show soared HIGH. It was a bumpy ride for all of us, but im blessed that we survived and gave a wonderful show to remember. I had a lot of challenges to put up this production, most specially in proving that I can direct and do this material. I feel so blessed that I had 21 very talented teens who helped my fulfill this dream of directing this production, without them I wouldn't have done it. Looking back on yesterday's show, I received wonderful reviews, hugs, happy tears from co-teachers, and even a pat on the back from the board of Trumpets. Feels good....feels wonderful to be appreciated. God has been very awesome to me, always being there when I break down and cry because of stress and as I tweak the show in order for it to improve and even get better.

I'm going to miss my students, I do hope they wouldn't forget me. I may not be a Freddie Santos or Jaime del Mundo or Chari Arespachochaga, but at least I've proven myself in putting up this production and defied gravity. I fought the fight, and im glad that we all survived.


What's next for me? I dunno. But I'm glad i've survived and soared through this summer. It's all for the good. I'm content.

defying gravity...well, almost

phew... this past few months has been so stressful for me. Physically, emotionally, well spiritually hindi naman. Actually, it's the kind of stress that I'll love and miss when its over.

But I've been blessed- with such a good bunch of teens, hungry for learning, eager to make a good show. Also the material that I chose was granted to me for me to do, which is awesome. Kakapagod lang talaga.

Signs of stressed Johann:
1) Hindi nag aayos ng buhok. naka bandana nalang
2) Not pormado
3) beard grows longer....and longer....and longer... then i decide to shave if im itchy.
4) pumapayat- not enough vitamins... ngek. di nakakakain in the right time.
5) eyebags, pimples (which is very RARE na mangyari. gosh)

Now, what does Johann do when stressed?
1) Sleep... sleep...sleep...
2) Eat happy food... (um, anything na mabilis, like fast food). well duno why happy food yun.
3) ZIPS! naks...my new discovery to calm myself
4) chocolateeeeeeee! cafe Xocolat!!!! the BOMB!
5) Bond with my students (awwww...)
6) read the BUY AND SELL, then laugh at wrong grammar ads...haha


Gosh, the show's 2 weeks away. Actually, its already DONE! Thank you Jesus. Just a little more tweaking nalang I guess. I do hope it would go smooth. BENGGA! (a term my class uses whenever they GET something or perfect na yung isang scene, or song etc.)


Sana nga...sana BENGGA! hayyy.... =)